The Sofa and TH anonymous

Guys, I know that I've been too much about TH lately. and I know its unlike me. I don't want to be those rabid fangirls. I want to be those decent, they-can-talk-to, calm and collected fangirl. Yah. So I made a responsible decision by sitting in on a TH anonymous session and the session was refreshing!! I met other crazed fans and together we struggled to keep ourselves calm!! I have an achievement!!! Yesterday, I went a full day without looking up TH in the internet!! I didn't listen to any of their songs! I didn't see them on Mtv or Channel V!! (well, I tried but they didn't appear) All I did was to play durch den monsun twice on the piano and that was it! That was it!! I'm so proud of myself!!!! Well, but today, I'm listening to them again XD

Anyway, I have managed to spend the pass few days on the couch. I'm finally one step ahead into my life long dream of becoming a professional couch potato. Yesterday especially, I maintained my position on the couch, only moving for toilet breaks and to get food. It felt so good! It's just me, the sofa I call Sally and the Tv for the whole day. Together, 3 of us make a great team. When I stood up to go upstairs, I left my permanent butt print on the sofa. It's like.... sunk in where I sat and when I came down this morning, it's still there!! And when I look under the sofa, I saw something horrendous! Something so ghastly, it was appalling! I saw, a spring.......  .____________________. (XD) Wait... How can it be!! I'm not that heavy that the spring will shoot out of the bottom of the sofa!!! Am I??? 

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Oh wait!!! Jason sat on it that day!!!! It wasn't me!!! What a relieve!!! XD

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Shirin, 

OHHHHH MAAAIIIII GOSHHHH!!! I will miss you much! Along with all our random activities! Remember the time when you were at my place and there was the kimono and the monkey hankie and we did random stuff and took pictures? And and and remember the time when we were at your place and there were black eyeshadow and L and the rabid fan girl?? 

My dear rinnie meow-meow, I will really miss you if I really go!!! And I still owe you lots of chocolates from your countless blackmails!!!

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TOKIO HOTEL!!!!!!!

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I mean, Angebange,

Eh, how many times you re-rolled already ah?

I'm going to Penang this friday wei. What was supposed to be a college escapade turn out to be a family trip -_- Anyway, we are gonna do lotsa lotsa lotsa shopping (window shopping ) and and and and and you seem much quieter now. What happened to my jeng buddy?

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I feel like eating pizza. Oh wait..... nvm

American Dream

So we have talked it through and discussed over it and decided that I will do all I need to do to apply for the college in America and yes I do hope I get accepted !!!! Honestly, I am so excited!!! There is so many things I wanna do, so many things I wanna see when I get there!!! Imagine the adventure, the drama, the excitement!!! I'm going to where everything is happening!!! (well......) and and and, I hope once I'm there, TH will give me some time t earn some money before they decide to have a gig there so I can afford to go? XD ya man ya man ya man!!!! AH! 

Ok ok, back to reality. I'll still be applying for some local colleges incase I don't get accepted. But, I really wanna goooo!!!!

As of now, TH dominated my iPod. Maybe I should name my iPod too. Ummm.... Und Ehmm Ja, Und Ehmm Ja.... und ehmm ja. Nein!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Of cute boys, stalking and dilemma

As of late, I've found myself in the black hole that is Tokio Hotel, in which I have been stalking. Yeah. Elfie's face is good looking now, what with the band gracing his face. So Elfie looks like Tom and Bill and Gustav and Georg now. Ya man. Elfie sounds good too! He sings Tokio Hotel now. Literally. Ya man. 

Anyway, as I was saying, stalking. Yeah. I have been stalking a lot lately. I keep telling myself that I need to update my blog. I keep repeating that to myself every time I spend time with Elfie but I end up procrastinating, allowing myself to stalk for 10 minutes before i do what I have to do. In the end, Elfie found me stalking for 5 hours. What was supposed to be 10 minutes of stalking multiplied to God knows how long. Yeah. I know. 

No really, Tom and Bill are really cute! XD

I'm only writing this now after I-don't-know-how-many-days of stalking. And I decided that there are somethings my friends should know.

Guys, Elyna, Mirshal, Natalie, Sheryll.........

Girls, An Ge and Yin Ying

Metrosexual, Elfie

Beloveds, TH (ok, that was stupid)

I've discussed things with my auntie. I've been given the option of studying in Saddleback Community College, in America. And I'm really interested to go. As of now, I'm most likely going. And if I really go, it will be early August, his year. Or, late July, this year. Yeah. As I type this, my mum is discussing with my auntie and see if things can work out. 

Actually, I've been wanting to go for some time already... I've only just been waiting for the option to pop up and yeah. I wanted to go, not because it will get me a little closer to meeting Tokio Hotel. Really!!! (I think...) Yeah, I know they are German and all but they do have gigs in the states!! I digressed. Anyway, looking at things now, I wanted to try something new, gain fresh experiences and all that. Have a change in lifestyle, not that I'm hating Malaysia or that I don't miss my friends. Its quite the contrary actually. For one, I will really REALLY be missing my girlfriends and and AND Shirin and and AND my jeng buddy and and AND my family especially Ah Boi. 

One thing is, I know I won't be going back to TOA(i think. think. think. THINK) not because I hate it or anything but because I dislike the lifestyle and I have learned that drawing can be my hobby and in the US college and university, I can take it as a minor and something as a major and still land a job related to art if I'm good and and and one day get to meet T and B (ok, that was stupid). ITS NOT ABOUT T AND B but about ME finding MYSELF!!! (and T and B) (shyt. it is obsession now. Durch den Monsun. argh) I mean imagine going to a TH concert one day!!!! I mean..... aih.... forget it. Ich liebe TH. *sigh*

Say if I go to US, I'll go to a community college for 2 years and then go to university for 2 years then I am out! I can then go for my life long dream and be a rock star! Yay! I mean, I can go do what I wanna do after that. So yeah. And if Kc joins me next year, we can get a car! You can get cheap cars in US. XD and and and errrrr.... I really wanna go...... can I? can I? can I? Please? 

Errrr........ Ok. 

Bubbles and memories

Yesterday, We went out to the lake to blow bubbles!!! Jason, Kc, Ah Boi and I!! We blew and blew and blew till the evening sky was filled with colourful spheres and it was so pretty!! I was so happy! I was in glee! And as we were blowing, little kids came by and we gave them 2 bottles and they blew too and after that, we went to get ourself bubble tea!! It was a bubble filled day! And I fond out that the bubble tea shop was named after their 2 year old son, Carson! The boy was adorable!! We gave him a bottle of bubble too and he was sooooo happy, it made me happy!! And we were like, 

What is this?

Carson: BUBBLES!!! SO MANY BUBBLES!!!! *giggles* BUBBLES!!!

How many are there?

Carson: 1 2 3!!! 1 2 3 !!!

Hmm? There is more now! How many are there?

Carson: 123 123 123!!!!!!

Cute little thing could only count to three XD Jason!!!! He is so cute!!! I want one too!!! Where can I buy it???

Jason: Sperm Bank

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Today, I was finishing my CG assignments and when I finished, I found something else.

I found all our form 5 pictures and I'm like " I MISSS FORM 5!!!" I wanna wear my uniform again. Maybe one day I will.

Anyway, here is just 1% of our memories

Wing, his 2 wives, and a jealous other XD

The 5 of us,

5 of us
and, 5 of us XD I miss the curry soup and... TAU POK!!!!!

T_T      those were the days.........................

What about tomorrow?

As of today, I am a lazy bum bum buming around. Ya man. Lately I've been lazing around and doing my assignments sloppy maybe because I hang around with Ahn Ghe too much? 

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Hahaha, noway. It's probably because I'm indecisive on my next step. Where do I go from here, so many voices singing in my ear, is this the voice that I was meant to hear? Ok, enough with lyrics..... XD I mean in a more serious note, this week found me in a slump, indecisive, unsure and unproductive. I started realize how everyone is improving and leaving me behind. I started to notice how my progress have been stagnant and unchanging if it's not declining. My, whatever shall I do know?

Dear God, what is the bigger picture? Where does my path lead to? What is it that you wish of me in my life?

Seriously Contemplating

Lately, I've been rethinking my choice in courses and thinking about my lifestyle now. Really, I thought I was sure of what I wanted to be and what I wanted to achieve in life t, now, I'm not all that sure anymore....

I came to realize that in this 3 months, I've only been all about for assignments and college and when I'm not doing assignments ( which is actually when I'm in the car or showering or eating) I'm missing all the times from my awesome past, what with a bunch of crazy great girlfriends, funny noisy guyfriends and awesome amiable teachers. It feels as if I've lost my life and yeah, because really, if I'm not sleeping or eating or showering, I'm doing assignments and my kiasu attitude just won't let me skip one assignment.... haih.... and all my friends have been asking me out to yam cha and all that and honestly, I felt so angry at myself for not being able to join them. I know they don't mean to but it felt as if they were pressuring me to go or mocking my state of assignments frenzy! Well, I know I'm just thinking it all up. I know the love me and I love them too. 

Being in such frustration, I actually contemplated changing to study psychology. I've always been interested in it and all . I know for a fact that its not gonna be easy, but atleast I'll be getting more sleep? I like studying anyway. The joy of picking up a book, sitting on my bed and just read the whole afternoon. I probably won't be saying this when I'm really studying XD. But yeah, it's been so hectic, even my mother is asking me to really think about it because she sees me in my tired stupor and she knows what time I sleep AND I complain alot, so yah. XD. 

I know that I won't amount to anything if I don't go through what I'm really going through right now. I mean for anyone to be successful, there will be a period in time when they triumph over sleepless nights and just work on what they are doing, driven by will and passion. I understand that. But I cannot deny the fact that I am only human. Not SuperHuman ( Chris Brown!!! =_=). But yeah. I mean, really, this is crazy. I should really have listened to Shirin and think it over. 

Besides that, its actually fun when it is fun. I mean, I met awesome friends and really interesting lecturers! Then again, my mother said that if I work like how I'm working now in the future, how am I gonna starts a family? Where can I find time for my family? WHEN WILL I HAVE THE TIME TO SEARCH FOR MR.ROMEO????? NYUUUUUU!!!!! my 25 years old get married and m 3 kids..... haih....

 

i REALLY am CONTEMPLATING now. (Even after Ange said he will haunt me........ XD)